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With this post I planned to renew my resolve and try to refocus again, so, naturally, I've been putting it off.

But guess who's a month behind on her studies?

It all started because I couldn't stand my lecturers for the past almost-three weeks. Their lectures have been so dry. I don't see the point in being in a class if I won't be interacting with others and I'm just being talked at.

And that's where my mind started wandering. Extremely. Mostly to movies and typology. I actually left the typology community last October to focus on my health and studies, and when I check from an alt, I see some of my friends there wondering where I went. I was planning to return in March but it might just end up distracting me in the same way movies have been distracting me lately. I know life shouldn't be all-work-and-no-play but I quite literally don't have the discipline unless I go to extremes. Not to mention, I've been failing miserably at taking care of my nutrition. I'm still mostly eating fruits, vegetables and fish but I'm not getting much meat or variety and I fear I'm ingesting too much mercury from all the mackerel I've been eating.

And then there's the state of my apartment, which isn't even remotely funny.

Everyday I tell myself: today I will clean! And everyday I fail to make myself do anything. Lazy, messy, Elle! [Mr. Knightly voice] Badly done, Elle! Badly done!

And so, as you can see, I'm failing left and right!!!

I need to regroup and refocus. The lectures are unfortunately not up to me so I'm just going to have to make the most of it and not be fussy. And I really want to take the qualification exams in extra fields I can get certifications on so my resumé looks better, so I have to find a way to squeeze studying for them in too.

On the brightside, I found out that the important exam I have coming up in less than two months is only economics and management. It's still hard (there's business math on top of everything