elle_o_v_e4eva

Hello. I'll start with the bad news.

I feel very dumb, incompetent and far behind in my class compared to the others. Everyone else seems so cunning. I really need to get better at coming up with creative solutions, networking and planning ahead. I also have so much catching up to do in multiple fields that I don't think I even have time to do anything else. I'm very worried for my future.

But there are good things, too. I've been in different groups and under different lecturers and, although it made me realise how far behind I am, I'm also learning a lot, not just from the lecturers, but also from my classmates. I'm taking down notes on how to be better. It really makes me want to mingle with even more people so that I can learn even more! I want to be the best of the best. ❤️‍🔥

I'm still really scared of failing but I'm trying to think positively. Like, at least, even if I fail, I'll still turn out to be a better, more developed person in the future than from how I am now.

Let's talk about the good news now.

I was struggling with chronic tiredness last year and I felt impossibly low in energy. I collapsed twice and, after my surgery last month, I've completely struggled to pick myself up...but! I finally started improving my nutrition and I've been successfully sticking to a healthy diet. I cut out caffeine and sugar from my diet completely. I eat fish sandwich for breakfast (salmon with cheese) and drink apple juice, and for lunch I eat vegetable salad with little meat strips, yogurt, nuts and cold milk. For dinner, I eat lots of meat + starches, drink orange juice, and eat fruit for dessert when I remember. Whenever I crave sweets (which is all the time), I substitute it with milk. It's only been a week and already I'm feeling so energetic and my skin is literally glowing! Apparently the bigger effects will hit after two or three months, so I'm very excited.

As things are now, my hands are full with just my studies and health alone. Hopefully I'll be able to find a rhythm so I can squeeze in other things I want to do later on, but for now I think I ought to prioritise these two things.

'Til next time.