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elle_o_v_e4eva ([personal profile] elle_o_v_e4eva) wrote2025-06-16 01:17 pm

May + half of June blues

May wasn't exactly "a lot", but it was challenging. I juggled a mini heartbreak, deadlines and exams, and family reunions. Somehow it was more miserable than not.

June is half over and my overall health just grows worse, physically and mentally. Bad news happening left and right, out in the world, and in the online spaces I frequent. On the bright side, I've been reading and creating, and I'm meeting intelligent people, and this has all been inspiring. As stimulating as they are to have around though, I can't help but feel stupid, incapable and useless by comparison. It's the same in class. I feel very behind no thanks to my difficulties with concentration. I ought to take this focus problem more seriously. Literally I feel so stupid that I'm genuinely concerned for my future

To sum things up, I don't have a lot of good things to share and I'm not very happy...I have been neglecting proper selfcare. I might focus on fixing this.
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[personal profile] mome 2025-06-16 02:36 pm (UTC)(link)
always cheering u on elly🩷